Jesus Come Back
Jesus Come Back
Rapsodie Adams
Many years ago I went to the Lord to complain about my newlywed husband, whom I believed did not have a close enough walk with God. Of course, I don’t know how I would have seen that which such a large beam sticking out of my eye. Of course this was my story, at the time, and I was sticking to it.
The first time I went to the Lord about my husband, the Lord spoke to me in that still small voice. He said, “Do not complain about your husband, but pray for him.” Not exactly the words I wanted to hear. On my second attempt to get God to enlighten my husband, the Lord answered me back and not with such a still small voice. Again He told me to pray, for my husband.
At this point I pretty much felt that God was not seeing my situation clearly. So on my third attempt to talk to the Lord, I pulled out the big guns. I reverted to what is called, tattle telling. This time the Lord did not answer. The quietness was all so real. From His booming voice last time, to complete silence.
Lord…are you there?
For the next three days, I made several attempts to hear from the Lord; I pleaded with the Lord to let me feel His presence, but nothing. Because of this, I became so void of life, it was like living in a black and white world. I went to my husband and I told him all that I had said to the Lord. With a heavy heart I told him it had been three days that I had not felt the presence of God. I was crying so hard I could hardly breathe. My husband put his arm around me and said “God would never leave you” and tried his best to comfort me.
That night I could not sleep, for hopelessness had filled my heart. And in despair, I said to God “if I am never going to feel your presence again, please have mercy and let me die, this night.” I don’t know when I fell asleep, I only know that when I opened my eyes I woke my husband with shouts of “look the sun is shining, look how green the trees are.” The sky was so blue. Needless to say, I could feel God’s presence.
Disobedience with God, is a big deal. God saw the repentance of my heart, showed me mercy, a lesson well learned. My hope is this; that my testimony may be of great help to someone else.
A Prayer
Dear Father, thank you for the word of my testimony and the blood of the Lamb. I know that you would never leave me nor forsake me. It was my disobedience that threw a shadow over your presence. Thank you for your mercies, they truly are new every morning. Life without you Father, is no life at all.
Be blessed in Jesus’ name.